what's your good number?

definition of a good number - what you deem as an appropriate number of sexual partners that your significant other has had.

does it absolutely matter? or does it matter up until a certain age, and then it's open season? if you meet & fall in love with someone, do you want to know about his/her past? and if so, how much? if he's clocking in at wilt chamberlain numbers but makes you feel like the only girl in the world, do you care? if she knows & has experimented with lil kim's "how many licks" frontwards & backwards, are you giving her the side-eye? these are just questions...you be the judge.

i shot a short film as a wife who's husband and his buddies have strong opinions about how many partners is suitable for a potential wife. who knew a number could reek so much havoc on a group of friends. take a look and let me know in the comments section what your good number is.

shout-out to writer/director paul mckoy, director of photography wiener milien, and producer patrick ulysse. the entire cast: lodric collins, alexis davis, james lyones, noriko sato, and paul roberson. the crew: marc enette, andrea monorchio, sarah matte, jacqulyn abergas, jean marie papin, janice lindo, shorn joseph, fredrick weiss, and savanna sweet.

she gets it from her mama...or maybe not

aries child, virgo mother.

when an aries child is born to a virgo parent, they may think they have nothing in common and sometimes can’t even believe they are related. this is a relationship that takes time and patience to develop. each must learn to understand where the other is coming from and to respect their different world views.
in many ways, the aries offspring and the virgo parent are opposites: aries is brash, dominant, and aggressive, always jumping into new things, and usually impatient. the virgo adult is detail-oriented and quiet, even shy, and works patiently toward goals.
breaking it down: if these two opposites don’t spend time to get to know and understand one another, the child will rebel and make bad choices. it is vital for the future of the relationship and the aries child for the virgo to make an effort to understand where her child is coming from and not to try and force her opinions upon her hard-headed child.


if my beloved mother read this, she would love the whole "hard-headed child" bit. vindication for her. maybe i am actually the one with the problem, naaaaaa...love you mommie!

*source: http://ariesonfire.tumblr.com/post/8632133018/aries-child-virgo-mother

3's for the 3rd

1. daydream. everyday.

2. believe you are deserving of one day living within that daydream. everyday.

3. walk (period) don't run, don't jump, don't hop into a moving vehicle...just walk. everyday.

*image source: www.eracewalk.com

art as therapy

i want to feel the love before i die, so i'm getting rid of the anger here first.

- wendy sax, screenwriter & fellow s.g.

quote unquote

the highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
- john ruskin, an english poet, artist & thinker


*source: the daily love 

"and pleasure...no pleasure?"

i felt it was time to play. most of my thoughts, time and energy had gone into creative effort. and this restriction of the love drive, the headshrinkers will tell you, is the greatest urge one really has. when one sublimates the sex drive into creative work, it puts a person in high gear, mentally. i admit it. but it is against my nature to bottle up the biological plans of pleasure for any length of time. i hope i don't sound as if i have discovered the secret salve that soothes the universe, but i do want to add my small footnote on the subject.

- mae west

this past week has been all about the idea of pleasure. scripts & books come into my life at interesting times in my life...when i need to learn something from them or have an aspect of my personality or shadow personality illuminated. funny that this week i worked on a script in ela's "directing actors" class by a wonderful writer named wendy sax. the scene was about two 50-something yr olds who meet and are attracted to each other, but are also guarded because they've been down the road of love and been burned by either illness then death or heartbreak and abandonment...the inevitables of life. the two go through the initial push & pull of when you first meet a new love interest. the man hasn't had the experience of pleasure in ages, and the woman challenges herself to see if she can get him to feel any sort of pleasure. she succeeds. by the end of the scene, they decide to take a chance on each other and once again, the hope of love.

wendy gifted me with a book called "mama gena's school of womanly arts" which is all about a woman finding & creating her own pleasure. not waiting for the perfect time, location, or man to swoop in with this delectable delight. i'm craving more pleasure and fun in my life but between financial and work (hallelujah!) obligations, i'm usually left with sore pinkie toes, a checklist of things to accomplish, and exhaustion that begs me to rest my head on my pillow for 30 mins which turns into deep slumber. pleasure hasn't seemed to make it's way high on the list...well up until this weekend that is. according to mama gena (the purveyor of pleasure in the book), "the path to pleasure...begins with a decision, a simple decision that each of us must make: we merely must acknowledge that what we have is good now. not 'life will be good, if only...' not ' life would have been good, except...' no....it is good now." alot of my friends are traveling and bbq'ing this holiday weekend. i'll be working, but that doesn't mean i can't create a little pleasure for myself. decision made.

let me know in the comments section how you plan to create pleasure for yourself this memorial day weekend...

*source: mama gena's school of womanly arts, by regena thomashauer

the crown chakra

faith has to do with 'yes.' yes, i can change, we can change, this situation can change. having faith grounds us back into the first chakra, where we manifest these goals to change ourselves, our community, and our world. the top chakra completes the center line of energy.

#enlightenment

*source: the lucid body, by fay simpson